Memento mori
Posted on October 1, 2007 at 10:54 am by Galina
Most of them including those who photograph only for home archives - regard them to be unsurpassed specialists in photography and also consider others species with cameras to be ridiculous. Whenever I meet with next hobby photographer he hurries to give me advice how I can improve my severely neglected technique and repair personal vision.
Strange thing is we all feel ourselves to be bright, but others see us as dull.
I gladly take in consideration any advice.
But then I come back to my Self.
Sometimes struggling through feeling of desperation I ask myself, what I would do just now, if I knew that exactly in one month I would start for long journey?
I could ask myself: what I would do if I know in one month I would die?
But dying and death is connected with pain, disaster, illness, fear and loss in our imagination. To avoid painful associations I mind only journey - full of new mysteries and discoveries.
What I would do today and to whom I would talk, if I know I would depart soon?
I would give up all struggles and attempts to survive.
I would never go to any social institution seeking protection and help.
All institutions including charity and social help organizations are minded to support hierarchy structure of society first of all.
I would not ask anybody of my former lovers to help me.
Forced and begged help has no spiritual value; you can not get any help if it was not initiated by giver.
I would feel myself absolutely happy and free to do what I was designed by nature to do.
Duck floats on surface of lake.
Bird flies.
Horse runs in the field.
Everything what we are designed by God to do comes to us without struggle and exaggerated effort.
Knowing that she will leave in one month - Galina would think.
Then she would write and make photographs.
Then she would buy big wok, cook pilaf with spices and invite everybody to try it.
