Nothing changes in life so quickly, but day after day, I grow more and more dissatisfied with possibilities Nikon D200 provides for shooting indoors. Sometimes I feel completely desperate looking through dark and unclear shots I made in cafe. From one side big professional camera can not suit spy and voyeuristic tendencies I have, from the other side small camera compromises quality especially in poor light conditions. After 7 months of my lonely life in Vienna and some disappointing meetings in WAFF, organizations and newspapers I become less optimistic about my professional journalistic future in Austria. This country has very good social security system, that reduces earning and career possibilities for freelancers. Austrians value stability and security, that often compromises originality, initiation and enterprise. Unless you are not included in social system, you cannot survive. When you are included, you have boring work and one topic that you constantly discuss with your colleagues is how many years you need yet to reach commonly desirable pension age.
I had head opinions of Austrians who used to work for American organizations for some time and
being detached from their own national environment
realized that cautiousness, lack of enterprise, tendency to be polite and cover problems,
laziness and deep down despise for foreigners are inborn Austrian qualities
I can not say I prefer Russians, French, British or Swedes
About every of these nationalities I also have opinions based at intimacy
experiences with their male representatives
I only want to say there is always day and night, dark and light,
moon and other side of the moon.
And how to come through next stripe of complete darkness and preserve
integrity of your own personality?
